Well, I think I'm gonna be shutting the blog down for a while. Maybe permanently. It's been over a month since I made an update and that's been about the norm since I quit my job a year and a half ago. Plus, to be honest, I'm just not as inclined to devote the time to it that I used to when I was on someone else's payroll. My days are almost entirely devoted to designing web sites, looking for work at a successful company (small business can go fuck itself), and goofing off with my wife. That last one being more important than several things, including spending/wasting time online.
It's funny, I thought when I quit my job I'd have all this time to work on my site and do more writing - and I have - but it turns out that spending time on the internet feels like dying if I'm not working or doing something at least half way important. I've even had a hard time writing for the last year or so. I used to not be able to go five minutes without writing down whatever was in my head and, these days, I can't write a structured sentence for shit. Not that I haven't been writing, I've been writing like mad. It's just that it's all been soul searching, self examination horseshit, most of which I don't want to share with anyone. What little of it I have put on display has been featured over at Mungbeing - the finest magazine on the internet - the newest example of which can be found here.
Hopefully, I'll get over whatever I'm going thru soon and this site won't have the same front page for four months at a stretch. As for the blog...I really don't know if I'll be resurrecting it. I've arrived at the point where the word "blog" is fucking annoying, and the word "blog-o-sphere" just fills me with venomous hatred. Not because the word "blog-o-sphere" is gay (although it certainly is), but because it's just an incredibly stupid word that means "internet." What the fuck is that all about? Why does the blogging community get their own special name? Why don't other types of web sites have their own special name? Why isn't there a "porn-o-sphere?" Or an "entertainment-news-o-sphere?" I'll tell you why. Because blogs are free and they can be "created" and maintained by anyone smart enough to fill out a sign up form and remember a password. Which, honestly, is cool and the very thing that makes blogs so damn great. Unfortunately, that's also the very thing that makes the blogging community so fucking retarded. And they know it. You can make as much fun of Harry Knowles as you want - and let's be honest, you probably should - but that guy knew enough html to create aintitcool.com and now Ain't It Cool, Inc. has offices all over the world. Or at least I think he knew enough html to create aintitcool.com, I'm pretty sure that's what my buddy Dana told me once. I'd do the whole fact-checking bit, but this is a blog and, honestly, it's fucking Harry Knowles, who gives a shit? Anyway, the point is that Harry knew what he was doing and turned a stupid little geek ass movie news web site into a small empire. Good for him, he's an internet legend. The porn mongers out there? Well, nine times out of ten, those motherfuckers are dumber than a sack of bricks and shit. But they have more money than every Catholic in the world combined and can afford to hire freelance webmasters (virgins) to create and maintain their web sites for them. And, the exact same statement can be said of most major news organizations, except they have less money. But bloggers? Dime a fucking dozen - site looks like shit (assuming they have an actual web site and aren't using the standard asshat.blogspot.com template), very rarely anything original to say, and almost always just as ignored as they are in real life. Seriously, why is it that one out of every three blogs I come across looks just like this one? Think I'm exaggerating? Check out this one. I randomly pulled those two blogs off the first page of blogger.com, I don't intend any insult to those particular bloggers, just for the record. Also, just for the record, I'm not trying to say all blogs are shit, there are several I read every week. Of course, that has just as much to do with the fact that they provide an RSS feed as it does with the fact that the bloggers are intelligent enough or funny enough to bother reading. Getting off track again. The point is that with the increasing popularity of sites like myspace, livejournal, and blogger, it's possible for Jesus, Mohammed and everyone who worships them to have a blog and when you've got a crowd that big, how the fuck do you stand out? How do you achieve importance to anyone other than yourself and a couple of your friends? Answer: You don't. And that's why the "blog-o-sphere." That's how I see it anyway, I could be wrong I guess.
"But Tim," you say, "Aren't you subject to the same criticism? Aren't you guilty of everything you just bitched about?" Well...yeah. Kinda. And that's one of the reasons I think I'm done with this whole blog thing. Of course, that's also the reason I tried (and, yes, frequently failed) to keep my blog dedicated to directing those of you who bothered to read it to the horrible and the bizarre, such as Life Gems or the freaky ass little hamsters singing "We like the mooooooon!" And, at the risk of sounding as self important as the people I've just criticized, I think my blog was fun. Sometimes interesting, sometimes stupid, but mostly just a fun way to kill some time. Score.
On a side note, including it's use in this very sentence, I've only written the word "blog-o-sphere" four times. Ever. I think. And all of them in this, my final blog post maybe. And that will be the last time I write that wretched word for the rest of my life. Unless I forget I made this vow, and wind up writing about this shit again at some point in the future (principles are for losers).
So. That wound up being a lot more than I'd intended to write. I'll finish by giving you a link to this news story that Howard sent me and, if you're like me, will both amaze and anger you. I'd say goodbye but, who knows, I might wind up working another job I hate and spend half my day working on my web site instead of whatever customer account audits. But...oh my god, I fucking hope not.
Kill Whitey!
-Tim(othyX)
It's funny, I thought when I quit my job I'd have all this time to work on my site and do more writing - and I have - but it turns out that spending time on the internet feels like dying if I'm not working or doing something at least half way important. I've even had a hard time writing for the last year or so. I used to not be able to go five minutes without writing down whatever was in my head and, these days, I can't write a structured sentence for shit. Not that I haven't been writing, I've been writing like mad. It's just that it's all been soul searching, self examination horseshit, most of which I don't want to share with anyone. What little of it I have put on display has been featured over at Mungbeing - the finest magazine on the internet - the newest example of which can be found here.
Hopefully, I'll get over whatever I'm going thru soon and this site won't have the same front page for four months at a stretch. As for the blog...I really don't know if I'll be resurrecting it. I've arrived at the point where the word "blog" is fucking annoying, and the word "blog-o-sphere" just fills me with venomous hatred. Not because the word "blog-o-sphere" is gay (although it certainly is), but because it's just an incredibly stupid word that means "internet." What the fuck is that all about? Why does the blogging community get their own special name? Why don't other types of web sites have their own special name? Why isn't there a "porn-o-sphere?" Or an "entertainment-news-o-sphere?" I'll tell you why. Because blogs are free and they can be "created" and maintained by anyone smart enough to fill out a sign up form and remember a password. Which, honestly, is cool and the very thing that makes blogs so damn great. Unfortunately, that's also the very thing that makes the blogging community so fucking retarded. And they know it. You can make as much fun of Harry Knowles as you want - and let's be honest, you probably should - but that guy knew enough html to create aintitcool.com and now Ain't It Cool, Inc. has offices all over the world. Or at least I think he knew enough html to create aintitcool.com, I'm pretty sure that's what my buddy Dana told me once. I'd do the whole fact-checking bit, but this is a blog and, honestly, it's fucking Harry Knowles, who gives a shit? Anyway, the point is that Harry knew what he was doing and turned a stupid little geek ass movie news web site into a small empire. Good for him, he's an internet legend. The porn mongers out there? Well, nine times out of ten, those motherfuckers are dumber than a sack of bricks and shit. But they have more money than every Catholic in the world combined and can afford to hire freelance webmasters (virgins) to create and maintain their web sites for them. And, the exact same statement can be said of most major news organizations, except they have less money. But bloggers? Dime a fucking dozen - site looks like shit (assuming they have an actual web site and aren't using the standard asshat.blogspot.com template), very rarely anything original to say, and almost always just as ignored as they are in real life. Seriously, why is it that one out of every three blogs I come across looks just like this one? Think I'm exaggerating? Check out this one. I randomly pulled those two blogs off the first page of blogger.com, I don't intend any insult to those particular bloggers, just for the record. Also, just for the record, I'm not trying to say all blogs are shit, there are several I read every week. Of course, that has just as much to do with the fact that they provide an RSS feed as it does with the fact that the bloggers are intelligent enough or funny enough to bother reading. Getting off track again. The point is that with the increasing popularity of sites like myspace, livejournal, and blogger, it's possible for Jesus, Mohammed and everyone who worships them to have a blog and when you've got a crowd that big, how the fuck do you stand out? How do you achieve importance to anyone other than yourself and a couple of your friends? Answer: You don't. And that's why the "blog-o-sphere." That's how I see it anyway, I could be wrong I guess.
"But Tim," you say, "Aren't you subject to the same criticism? Aren't you guilty of everything you just bitched about?" Well...yeah. Kinda. And that's one of the reasons I think I'm done with this whole blog thing. Of course, that's also the reason I tried (and, yes, frequently failed) to keep my blog dedicated to directing those of you who bothered to read it to the horrible and the bizarre, such as Life Gems or the freaky ass little hamsters singing "We like the mooooooon!" And, at the risk of sounding as self important as the people I've just criticized, I think my blog was fun. Sometimes interesting, sometimes stupid, but mostly just a fun way to kill some time. Score.
On a side note, including it's use in this very sentence, I've only written the word "blog-o-sphere" four times. Ever. I think. And all of them in this, my final blog post maybe. And that will be the last time I write that wretched word for the rest of my life. Unless I forget I made this vow, and wind up writing about this shit again at some point in the future (principles are for losers).
So. That wound up being a lot more than I'd intended to write. I'll finish by giving you a link to this news story that Howard sent me and, if you're like me, will both amaze and anger you. I'd say goodbye but, who knows, I might wind up working another job I hate and spend half my day working on my web site instead of whatever customer account audits. But...oh my god, I fucking hope not.
Kill Whitey!
-Tim(othyX)